Finished up yet another song! SWEET!! 5 songs down, 2 to go!

My anxiety is coming back I can feel it, I’m becoming more emotional and I’ve been thinking bad thoughts again.. I don’t think it’s the pressure of school, I have it pretty easy at the moment, I only have three more exams and they’re really spaced out, plus I break up tomorrow. 

I think it’s the change.

I don’t cope well with a change in routine, I have a basic daily schedule, my body’s even adapted to work with it.

Maybe that’s it.

My body is set to this clock and now the clock’s gone my body doesn’t know what to expect, which is putting pressure on my brain, resulting in me having anxiety problems again.

But I’m not going to hurt myself anymore, I know how difficult it is not to and it’ll cause more stress not doing anything but I can’t go through this again.

I won’t let it control me, I’m strong.

I always get inspiration for writing lyrics when I’m close to nodding off, my vocabulary just seems to explode! Soooo tired!

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Going out for the first time in years in a pair of shorts with no tights.. so self-conscious about my legs, but I need to do this to boost my confidence. I can’t go another summer unnecessarily boiling to death in thick jeans. :’)